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Happy New Year! My Final Thoughts for 2016

Happy New Year! My Final Thoughts for 2016

2017 is only hours away, and I think it’s safe to say FINALLY. I’m so ready for 2016 to be over and done with.

2016 has been one hell of a year, and mostly not in a good way. Countries are tearing themselves apart, a number of beloved icons have unexpectedly passed away, and there was even a threat of murderous clowns. Seriously, 2016? Murderous clowns?

Stephen King antics aside, 2016 overall was a struggle for the world. It was also a struggle for me personally. In August of 2015, I graduated from A&M, and I was so excited for the future. I thought I was going to be able to get a job and move out by the end of October and make new friends and start my life and just grow. Boy was I wrong. So, so, soooo wrong.

Long story short, out of the 100 or so jobs I applied for, I only ever heard back from one asking me for an interview, and that was quite the odd experience (another story for another time). It wasn’t until October of this year that I finally landed an internship in the digital marketing field. Honestly, when I applied for the internship, I had no idea what digital marketing even was, but I think I’ve found my calling.

But this year from August of 2015 to October of 2016 really affected me emotionally. I didn’t understand what I was doing wrong and no matter how many times I rewrote my resume, no matter how many times I tailored my cover letters for each company, no matter how many times I tried to reach out to people, nothing worked. It was quite discouraging, and it was a very low point in my life.

I felt like I had so much to offer and I was so eager to learn, but no one cared because I didn’t have 5 years of experience for an entry-level job.

Not to mention, my amazing, brilliant sister is living her dream: practicing veterinary medicine in her favorite city in California. I’m not going to lie, that little green monster otherwise known as jealously has appeared now and again. But my sister is also an inspiration. She works ‘round the clock, and she still finds the time to visit national parks and go surfing and roam around the city with her coworkers and friends.

I, on the other hand, didn’t have much of a social life at all in 2016. I never went out and did things with people because I was so disheartened at my inability to simply get a job. Everyone has always told me that you make new friends when you find a job and start working. Well, it’s hard to make friends when you can’t even get an interview for a job in the first place.

Anyway, enough moping! 2016 is almost over, and 2017 is almost here. It’s time for a change.

I’ve made some goals for this upcoming year to turn my life around. I’m going to:

  • Go out and do things that I enjoy, even if I have to do them by myself.
  • Make new friends and work to make those friendships last.
  • Take a trip to California to visit my sister and my best friend. (I’ll also be taking a swim with the great white sharks.)
  • Invest in a fancy, fancy camera and improve my photography skills.
  • Expand my art skills.
  • And also update this blog more often. Oops.

Even if things don’t go as expected, even if plans fall through, I’m still going to have a kick-ass 2017. And I hope you do, too!

Halloween Eve: It’s Pumpkin Carving Time

Halloween Eve: It’s Pumpkin Carving Time

It’s that time of year again on Halloween Eve to get a little bit crazy. There’s nothing quite like repeatedly stabbing a pumpkin with a knife and scooping out the guts while maniacally laughing to get you in touch with your psychotic side. In case you can’t already tell, I get a little weird around Halloween, ok? It’s normal.

This year marks the first year I’ve carved a pumpkin since middle school. That’s at least 8 years ago. How could I have gone 8 years without carving a pumpkin for Halloween? Shame on me. Needless to say, I was quite enthusiastic today when it came time to transform these pumpkins from woefully drab to fabulously frightening. Thankfully it didn’t end with a trip to the ER. Don’t play with knives, kids.

Of the two pumpkins my mom and I bought earlier in the month, I chose to carve the smaller and wonkier one. Continuing with my love of odd and quirky things, this pumpkin is as odd and quirky as a normal pumpkin can be. Trust me. I wanted a kooky-looking pumpkin to match the kooky-looking smile I planned to carve on its face. And if that didn’t sound a bit like something disturbing the Joker would say, I don’t know what would. I’ve clearly been watching too many Batman movies.

As I’m sure you know, the first step to every pumpkin carving process is to cut a hole in the top and use your hand to scoop out the innards while squeezing the orange slime between your fingers (gross sound effects optional). Of course when I opened my pumpkin, I got a little surprise. There were not one, not two, not three, but nine little seeds sprouting roots inside my pumpkin. One had grown to the point that it was already green. INSIDE MY PUMPKIN. Science, how is this possible? (Can you tell how confused I am by my use of italics and capital letters?) Naturally, I just had to plant a few of them in a flower pot in the backyard. My fingers are crossed they’ll grow!

All in all, my mom and I spent about a good hour and a half Halloween-ifying these pumpkins. And considering our carving skills are more than a bit rusty, I’m quite pleased with the final results. These jack-o-lanterns are more than ready to light up our front porch tomorrow night. Happy Halloween Eve!


The Spirit of October

The Spirit of October

What is it about the month of October that makes me feel all warm and fuzzy on the inside? Is it the cool breeze that gently ruffles my hair? The fuzzy sweaters that are perfect for snuggling? Or the leaves that transform into a kaleidoscope of colors?

Well it’s certainly none of the above. Why? Because Texas is still hot as heck, and the leaves always seem to rudely ignore miss the changing colors memo. But it’s not all bad here in the Lone Star State. At least we still have pumpkins. That’s important. I honestly can’t think of anything that tops pumpkins in a month practically dedicated to these giant, orange fruits. (Yes, pumpkins are fruit.)

I’ve been excited for October since September 1st. Well technically I’ve been excited since November 1st of 2015. It wasn’t until last month however when my excitement finally overflowed that I embellished my house with both fall and Halloween decorations. Yes, I am that person who decorates for a holiday at least one month in advances, and yes, my enthusiasm is just that fanatical. Furthermore, I can guarantee my Christmas tree will be lit and adorned on the first of November.

But in all seriousness, thinking about October gets me all giddy and bubbly. It feels like I’m greeting a dear friend I only see once a year. Even though I don’t experience cold weather or colorful leaves and wearing a sweater in Texas is basically begging for heatstroke, just knowing it’s October is enough for me. The spirit of October is enough.

Because when I think about October, I think about comfort and earth and purity, and when combined with the cinnamon-and-spice scented candles in my kitchen and the pumpkins at my front door, it’s the perfect combination of the intangible and the tangible that produces the rush of happiness in my veins I’m practically addicted to this time of year.

On a side note, I believe it’s worth mentioning I’m listening to Christmas music while writing in a room filled with Halloween decorations about my love for October.